When the heat gets to you, get the hell outta the kitchen!

choleric: Extremely irritable or easily angered




I woke up feeling like shit today. I felt like everything around me is crumpling down and worst, i felt FAT. Like, pathetically, loserish fat. Like why-am-i-not-doing-anything-about-this-hideousness fat. It goes without saying, that led to my feeling of uglyness.

SO I decided enough is enough. I'm going to stop being a lazy buttcheek and get up and exercise! I mean, I can definitely find an hour or so in my boring life right?

I found some pretty easy and quick Sparkpeople videos on Youtube. I'm gonna start with these. My problem areas include the entire middle part of my body, so yah, gotta work it eh!




I also found a cheap Exercise Ball at Canadian Tire, its only $8 and the reviews are great, so I guess I'm going to give it a try. Check out the Ball here

On a completely different note, I hate the fact that I shop when I'm pissed off. It gives me this huge sense of relief, but then I feel so guilty for spending right after. I bought 3 things I didnt need to spend my hard earned money on yesterday. Must work on that. What MADE me pissed off? The usual. Some people really need to stop seeing things from their prespective only. I'm soooo sick and tired of this crap its not evgen funny. I think I know what I need to do. Wish me luck!

The cousins are still here, and I'm trying my level best to avoid them. Hence, trying to get out of the house as much as I can. Ok gonna be late for my rendezvous with Patty!

To Want is Human

Oh i have to restrain myself so much from ranting!! I've decided to finally make a list of things I want/need and then add/cross out the things as I get them/want them (yes, I'll stop with the "/"). I've been wanting to do that for quite a while, mostly in an attempt to organize my priorities and not spend frivolously. And as soon as I figure out how to put the list in the sidebar, I'll do so as well!

Ok.
Starting off,
I want:


-HOLCK Clutch wallet from Aldos : $25, and I've been wanting it since I first saw it. Dunno whyyy I put it back down haha Gotit!!

- A makup bag (Owing to the fact that the cute pink one Em gave me is destroyed...dumb zipper :[ )

- Wax. Yes, for obvious reasons *shifty eyes*. I'm so scared though, I've never used it on myself before. That's why it made this list

- Rock friggin band yo! AAAHHH I need a gaming system!!! This isnt a priority at the moment though

- Sandals/Flats: I gotta get these urgently. My regular shoes/sandals/flats are being worn by every female in this house ><. SOO they have a nasty stink, and they're almost withering away.

- Exercise Ball: I cant get a cheap one quickly. What happened to WalMart? Maybe I should try Canadian Tire...

...yep, that's all I can think of at this point. Seems like the only definite thing in there is the clutch
wallet..Oh Well, back to Boys Before Flowers then!

Cuz I cant just walk away...

sapient: having or showing great wisdom or sound judgment.

Awkward situations are..well, awkward. Like when you meet someone you sort-of know at a bus stop, and then the conversation goes something like this:

"Heyy!! Long time!"
"Wow, fancy seeing you here!"
"how have you been?"
"Good,good, just going to work"
"Ohh..nice, I'm just going to school..where do you work?"
"I work for the government... yeah."
"ohhh nice."
"yeah."
... awkward silence

The funny thing is, you are then strangely obligated to travel the rest of the way together if they're going in the same direction. What makes it worse is the fact that you never spoke with them for God knows how many years and so you have no idea as to whats going on in their lives, and hence, dont really know what to talk about.
Story of my life. I dont think my Tuesdays and Thursdays travel times are ever going to be spent in sleepy-bliss on the subway, thanks to this acquainted guy i found out lives close to my house/bus stop and takes the same route at the same time ALL the way to my last stop. What's worse? I had a teeeny crush on him once upon a time! I can picture Mary going "ewwwww" 8-)

Anyway, there's a lot I gotta rant about, but I remember I promised myself I wont. Sooo I'll talk about something nicer =) I had an awsome Thursday hanging out with Sasha at her house! We played Rockband for hours, and took like a zillion and one pictures of ourselves...ahha I loved it when we went onto mini photoshoots and tried to model lmao! We had so much trouble taking camera-whore pics of ourselves, mainly cuz Sahar's amazing camera is huge and heavy. And her parents super nice! Sasha and her mom made this amazing Afghan food, and then her dad told Sasha to drive me back home..woo, Sahar driving...
So all in all, it was a fun fun afternoon, I only wish we could do something more often, but I do understand brown parent-mentality. We just need to work around it;)
Check these pictures out! We're working itttt!




Whoo there's a hell of a lot more! We're camera-whores for real yo!

OH OH! I'm almost done my first comic. There's still a lot of things to do, like giving the characters names and giving the comic on the whole a name, but I guess that could be done after I finish the comic? I'm not putting in a lot of time in it, so the quality isnt that great, but whatever, at least its SOMETHING. I'm prolly gonna link it in my next blog (does anyone even read it? lol, i'd love a comment or two if you are reading this ;) ) I've also started to re read Agatha Christie's mysteries. Oh how I love them!

I dont know what else to write about, nothing amazing's going on in my life. My annoying cousins from India-who finally decided they're going to stay in Canada for the next three years- are over till tomorrow. whoop.ee. T_T

Ok. Tomorrow, I work out. I promise myself I will- I needed the basement empty for that, but the cousins are occupying it atm. Oh well, I'll find a way *determined*. I'm sure I dont need a whole lot of work, but I'm just lazy. I think I need someone to motivate me (and right now, the only thing that is a sort-of motivation is the fact that my ex-crush-who-crumpled-my-heart (lol, dramatic much??) is going to my university, and is going to be in my building! o mans! Gotta look hot;) lol!! But yaa, I need motivation, and more than that, I need a work-out buddy. I know I do things better when there's somebody doing it with me..*Sigh*

Wow, this post is mega!! I'll leave ya'll alone! TA!

Procrastination is a terminal diseasee

vagary: An extravagant, erratic, or unpredictable notion, action, or occurrence.

O man, I've got so much to do!! lol, I need to get organized. I've got an essay worth 25% due on Thursday, and there's like a zillion pages to read! Lalala..tomorrow? *slaps self*

I've discovered this new Indian reality show called Rakhi ka Swayamwar which is a full rip off of Bachelorette and it made me laugh! Why? This Rakhi person is a sleaze! But for some wierd reason, I'm hooked onto the show. Its probably the extreme cheeziness of the guys who are trying to woo her, or maybe the excessive fake-ness that the super-botoxed leading lady puts on. Either way, hah, its a good time pass. Check it out? EW PLEASE DONT HAHA!!

I was finally arranging my book-shelf and ended up going through my yearbooks and the notes me and my friends used to write to each other in/inbetween classes



You know what I've realized? When it comes down to important things, there is really no one but yourself to depend on. Every time I need a shoulder to cry on, or a friend to support me, I find myself alone. I bet I'm not the only one who feels this way, but this is a fact- In the end, you only have yourself to help you through whatever you are facing. Even my "closest" friends do not know things about me because well, where were they when it all went down? OH WELL! I need to stop this emo-ness. Okay for the next 2 entires, no more rantings =D (yah, you can tell those two entries are going to be pretty boring lol).

I'm going to put up photoshop tutorials that deal with mostly colouring/drawing, blends, photo effects etc. Also, my next blog would most probably be something to do with Muslim fashion essesntials. I've been wanting to do that for a while now .

I must finish my reading if Ho Xuan Huong's poetry. She's was a famous Vietnamese poetess who wrote about whatever annoyed her about her surroundings/culture. The most amazing thing about her poetry is that most of her poems have an extremely erotic double-meaning to them. Yeah, that's what my essay's about! It's pretty interesting, but makes for a loooong read. So phfshsfsh!!

I'll leave you with this awsome video I found. It's probably old but whatever, i lovelovelove it! Makes me want to join!
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The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

subfusc: dark or dull in colour

My summer is a friggin JOKE! If it’s not jobs that I absolutely hate but cannot get out of, or losing friends because they're jackasses who cannot own up to their mistakes, or the immense, superfluous amounts of flopping that took place, I absolutely cannot find more than three things I like about this summer. People need to understand that I have a life too, and cannot run according to their directions all the time. And it’s not even like I didn’t attempt working with their schedules. Ugh, h onestly, I've tried. I've tried enough times, and it's time I stop trying to fix things. I can’t force something to work if the other person isn’t willing to give it a try too. And the worst thing is, they remember me when they need me. Otherwise, its mostly “Asma who?” Whatever. Here`s me, giving up.

On a lighter note, I went to Marineland today with my aunts and uncles. It was niicee! I loveeeee love loveeeee dolphins! And omg, there were two Beluga whales with babies and it was sooo cute! The best part was the Sky Screamer ride. It’s like Top Gun, but I guess a little smaller? Except its on a hill so the view was like ah-ma-zing! My little cousins are so much fun! The littlest ones actually cried when they weren’t allowed to go on rides ‘cuz they were too small (this one is like, 2 years old). I binged on Coke and chips and burgers, but hopefullyyy worked that off today haha. All in all, it was a really fun day. I got a seasons pass, so yahyahhh looking forward to going again and ACTUALLY touching and feeding the Beluga Whales and the (erk) Walruses =]

I’ve started reading Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix again to ready myself for the movie!! CANT WAIT for that and Public Enemies. I still haven’t watched Transformers (ughh! I obviously cannot go to a theatre all by myself) or the Hangover (although I don’t care much about it, I just wanted to watch it haha). Any of my ghost-readers want to come along? =D

OKAY I SHALL NOW GO SLEEP =] G’nite!

Intros and such?

Random word of the blog: Sojurn- To dwell for a time; also, a temporary stay.
[You guys are going to highlight the first paragraph underneath this to read, because bloggers being retarded and wont let me change the font colour-which, you guessed it!- is black. FML]


I realize the previous blog wasn't the best intro-thing ever, but say that to a 19 year old tired brain...it'll eat you alive. Soooo this blog is basically going to be a rant-space (expects lots of those!!) / random sightings/ somewhere where I'd talk occasionally about beauty-fashion...in short, this is where I'll be dumping the contents of my head. Boy, it sure is going to be intersting.

Speaking of what's in my head, I DESPERATELY REQUIRE A CAT!! Notice how I said "require" rather than "want"? Yeah, the want phase has long passed. I'm thinking of hiding it in my bedroom...wait, I now share it with my ass-of-a-sister =[ . I'm going to resort to moving out if this wanting/needing phase remains for long. seriously. Three of my friends have recently gotten cats or kittens. Em and M just got to keep 2 kittens that Em's brother rescued. Nim's family actually went out to get a cat Ren. What's worse? I fully went up and striked a convesrsation with these two totally random girls in the RT (That's the smaller version of a subway..only its above ground) because they were carrying a box from the Humane Society that had a totally adorable kitten in it!! Guess I'd have to wait to get married and move out (cuz that's the order its going to happen) to actually get a cat. My future-husband can go live in a trash can if he's allergic/doesnt want a cat. hah! No -you-know-what for YOU mister!xD


I've been feeling quite depressed lately, and have come to realize that I actually dont have someone super-close to me. I think its beyond time I try and make new friends. My current ones..well, they know I love them off, but I get the feeling they dont trust me enough to let me in on things. Either that, or they've already got people to talk to...sooo i'm sort of left hanging in the middle. O well, ces't la vie eh?
(Wow that was uber french-canadian of me)


I'm just starting to get into Korean music thanks to Em and Sasha, and Im totally obsessed with Jae Joong from DBSK/TVXQ -like, super-fan-girl-crazy obsessed! You guys do not understand how freakishly crazy-obsessed obsession this is! (AND its freaking me out too!LOL) Like, this guy is friggin as close to perfect as they get! He's sooooo down to earth yet super super super popular and has got features of an ANGEL! Is it wierd that I like pretty pretty boys? Who cares if it is?? I'd swear I'd die if I see him live! (As in in-person, not concert-live haha)

With that, I think I should go sleep....and dream...mostly sleep *shifty eyes*
Toodles~

First things first

Its almost 1 AM, and I've watched 3 movies!! I've honestly got nothing better to do *sob*
Anywho, I'm off to bed (go on, make baby jokes 8-) ) . Will do proper intros/posts later.

Turrah!
<3 Ace